Sarah’s thoughts on eyes…
How beautiful it is to have two eyes! To be honest, I’ve never really paid it much attention. But now I find myself drawn to people’s eyes. I am struck at the beauty of God’s perfect design of our faces. How perfectly two eyes look… I don’t mean to imply I turn away from my son as I look at him with only one eye. Though I do miss his other eye – he did have particularly beautiful eyes! And the one is still beautiful, of course! 🙂 But it reinforces the reality that God’s design is so lovely and well thought out. (That’s an understatement, I know!) He’s still handsome and sweet as ever. He’s cooing and starting to “talk” now and has almost rolled over. He’s huge – in the 98% for weight and height. That’s my boy!
Every now and then I’m hit by the reality of his blindness in that eye – that it’s really gone. Just like that, it happened. And my heart breaks all over again…It really is a loss–one that I think I won’t truly grasp for a while. Yet, at the same time, I find myself accepting this new reality. I don’t know… Talk to me in a month and we’ll see how I am. 🙂

The One Who Sees is the One Who Makes Eyes
I’ve been reflecting on God’s ability to make eyes. Think about this. Imagine the man Jesus gave sight to had no eyes. We know he was blind, but just imagine for a moment he was blind because he actually had no eyes! (He probably had eyes that just didn’t work – but you never know!) And imagine that in order to give him his sight, Jesus actually made him eyes – right there! Newly formed eyes where there had been none! That would seem beyond miraculous. That the God-Man could/would make, out of nothing, brand new eyes for this man who had none… But now think about the phenomenal reality that occurs everyday as a baby is knitted together in the womb of its mother: eyes, ears, organs, skin etc. being formed from nothing! It is in fact, equally miraculous! But instead of happening outside the womb in happens inside! Yes, it is as miraculous for Jesus to make an eye in a grown man as it is to make it in my womb. It’s a shame that it’s predictability has made it seem less amazing in our eyes…
The formation of human life and every part of the body is truly miraculous and astounding. Think about it: what did I do to grow Zach? I ate, I slept, I drank, I took good vitamins to ensure I was getting optimal nutrition. All things I would do anyway to keep myself alive. And yet somehow as each day went by a tiny human was growing more and more completely as I did those things. I had NOTHING to do with Zach growing and being formed as each day went on.
It is God’s work–growing humans–ensuring that the cells come together, begin to multiply according to the instructions of the DNA, continuing day by day in a timely and complete manner, bringing about the onset of labor (doctors still don’t know what actually triggers the onset of an uninduced labor!), guiding the baby through the birth canal and into the world and a mother’s loving arms… Yes, it is God who does it and guides every cell where it ought to be – all with his Sovereign purpose in mind. He knows the beginning and the end and works all things for those purposes. And those purposes are for a beautiful kingdom, filled with his glory and people who would love him becuase of his awesomeness in knowledge and power. Yes, I pray, I know God has purposes for Zach in His Kingdom to know Him and make Him known. Did God ordain this cancer? I must say with certainty, He did. Though it breaks my heart to see his eye gone…And oh, how I pray the cancer is gone and never comes back.
Ah, how I look forward to the resurrection! All will be made new. Zach will have his eye again in eternity. We were intended to be whole, perfect, beautiful. Yet God deemed it wise to make his glory known in a fallen and broken world. It is so broken…But there it is, all the more reason resurrection bodies MUST be! (Thanks Pastor Alberta!) He is making all things new, restoring what was lost! YESSSS!
On the journey,
Sarah